I don’t understand why people are so hell bent on being happy. What does that even mean?

((Dictionary defines happy as: delighted, pleased, or glad, as over a particular thing.))

When people ask you if you’re happy.. what do you say?

I am not a dictionary so I say:::::

It’s not that I’m UNhappy.. I find myself only being able to describe the real emotions I face daily with the word: DISSATISFIED.. and well.. maybe disappointed. I really just have such high expectations of everything (and everyONE) that I feel let down a LOT. The solution you ask? To lower your standards. As depressing as that may be, I have to just enjoy what I CAN and just say ‘fuck it’ to the rest.

I have no control over the actions of people around me. I can only rely on myself for happiness. Say you’re in a relationship with someone and they let you down.. really the only thing YOU yourself can do is GET OVER IT. Sadly, most people rely too much on others for the stabilization of their emotions/feelings. When in reality it’s not safe or remotely RELIABLE to do so.

The shittiest part is that I’m selfish. I want to be treated a certain way.. I want to be loved and praised and bla bla bla.. And finding the right person for THAT job is damn near impossible. No one is perfect and I shouldn’t expect someone to CHANGE into that mold of this ideal person. It’s really fucked up that I would expect a guy to be a gentleman and to let me be me all the time and not want me to change… or is it?